2016 is almost over – and not a moment too soon.
This year was a mixed bag for me. The lows were devastatingly low and the ups… well, I’ve had to work so hard to make them happen. But that’s what makes them so rewarding, right?
This was the year I’ve grown up the most. I just wish I didn’t have to get beaten up so badly (figuratively speaking, of course) to learn my lessons. Humans, huh? With us, it’s the hard way or no way.
2015 was the year I finally took the leap and went for my dreams. It paid off. A year later, I now have the job I’ve always wanted and it’s starting to generate a good income, too.
And I hate every second of it. There are days when getting an email from a client is enough to bring on an anxiety attack and the thought of writing another promotional piece for a business blog makes me cry.
I love writing because it gives me a voice. A voice I can use to help people and improve their lives. Using it to promote messages I don’t 100% believe in just to make a quick buck is soul-destroying.
But that’s the price you have to pay to work for someone else, right?
So, I’ve started investing more in myself. I took a few blogging courses and looks like I am starting to make enough money with this blog to scale back on my freelance writing work.
It will mean less money for a while, but life is too short to waste your time doing something that doesn’t fulfil you. Every time I did that in the past, it always led to awful bouts of depression. It just ain’t worth it.
You know what else ain’t worth it? Being ashamed of your mistakes. Wasting time being mad at the people you love because they’ve hurt you. Waiting for the other person to make the first move to repair a relationship.
You think you have all the time in the world to make things right and then you get a phone call on your way to work. He’s dead. Couldn’t put up with the feelings of guilt and shame anymore. Knew how angry you were. Couldn’t bring himself to make the first move.
And now it’s too late to let him know if only he had dared to pick up the phone, you would have welcomed him back with open arms.
Time has run out.
I miss you, daddy.
It’s too late for us. But it’s not too late to own my mistakes. Make the first move. Rebuild my relationship with the people who, for one reason or another, I’ve lost touch with throughout the years. Turns out, they’re glad to hear from you again and you can often pick up where you’ve left off.
You just need the courage to drop your ego and go for it.
And that’s what I’ll be doing next year. I’ll say no to jobs I don’t enjoy, even if it means making less money. I’ll focus on the things that bring me joy and fulfilment. I’ll keep in touch with old friends and make new ones.
I don’t know what the future holds, but I’m so grateful to you all for sticking with me throughout the years and I hope you’ll stick around for a few years more.
Cos this little blog isn’t going anywhere. It taught me to believe in myself. Brought me friends from all over the world. Allowed me to help strangers feel better about themselves and how they look.
The BWB community is awesome. And I only want to serve it better in the future. You’ve done so much for me and I want to repay you by writing even more useful posts, create more helpful resources and give you all the tools you need to take good care of your skin, gain more confidence and love yourself more.
I wish you all, from the bottom of my heart, an amazing 2017! May the new year be filled with love, happiness and health. And may all your wishes come true.
Happy 2017 everyone!